On one hand I have difficulty understanding the words of Torah of the Rav. On the other hand, it gives me much pleasure which I have never had before. How can I know if this is a good path for me? Much thanks to the Rav….
Listen to the shiurim every so often, from the attitude that “I want to acquire for myself an enlightened spirit”. It should not be about practically actualizing the lessons right now. Slowly, with siyata d’shmaya, the words will become understood.