EMOTIONS GETTING IN THE WAY OF MY LEARNING [#16956]

I used to be emotionally closed, but later I matured and now I feel like a new person. But there is a price to pay for this, because I can’t concentrate on my learning, since I am always trying to get closer to Hashem through my learning. All I want to do is learn Torah, but I feel like I’m emotionally dead inside, and that I’m not in happy state in order to learn. I’m trying to learn Torah and be focused on it, while making sure that I’m staying emotionally healthy and feeling like I’m connecting to Hashem through it, and I don’t know what the balance should be.

You need to find your strongest point, become happy with it, and then activate it and expand it gradually. That will strengthen your soul, and that will give you, with siyata d’shmaya, the energy to continue to clarify and build your soul properly as you continue, with siyata d’shmaya.