QUESTION:
Lately I am dealing with symptoms of colitis which I hadn’t experienced in a long time. In addition, last week I was davening in a shul and a stone flew into the window nearby where I was davening and it almost hit me. The next day, my son, suddenly and very uncharacteristically, ran into the street and nearly got run over by a car. The driver stopped just in time.
How should I react to these three events which all happened consecutively? Is there a certain avodah that Hashem wants to see from me? I should point that in general I feel like I’m growing higher, because I regularly get guidance from the Rav and I feel like I’ve become a new person ever since I have started to get the Rav’s guidance, and therefore I want to know how to do teshuvah and progress further.
How should I react to these three events which all happened consecutively? Is there a certain avodah that Hashem wants to see from me? I should point that in general I feel like I’m growing higher, because I regularly get guidance from the Rav and I feel like I’ve become a new person ever since I have started to get the Rav’s guidance, and therefore I want to know how to do teshuvah and progress further.
ANSWER:
When you come close to middas hadin (Hashem’s judgments) you need to clarify the root of your own middos hadin in your soul, which is, by sharpening your own power of keeping to boundaries and limits. The reason why a person must do this is because sometimes a person is in middle of growing and going higher and suddenly he is jumping too quickly to higher levels, and he needs to clarify what his proper limits are, and to act according to his current level. (See Gemara Bava Basra 4a by the story of Bava ben Buta).
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